Heaven’s Harmony

Last Friday we drove our grand kids up to Twin Falls, Idaho, where they have purchased a home, and will be living, far far away from me. I have been feeling the separation. Seems as if I have a paper bag over my head. I can’t see and I can’t breathe. I want to reach out and touch them. I want to know what they are doing right now. I want to know if they are OK. It hurts, and I constantly pray for strength to face each day. That’s why I posted nothing on Monday. Too busy getting their old house ready to sell. Garbage, cleaning, and organizing.

While we were up in Idaho, I taught my grand kids a song that I wrote more than 30 years ago. It was written when we moved into this house. I had great hopes and aspirations for our home to be a bit of heaven on earth. I want their home to be heaven on earth too.

Within these walls lies heaven’s harmony.
Behind these doors grows love in plenty.
Under our roof there’s peace all around.
Our home is where true happiness is found.

At home we practice sharing happily.
We care for all our blessings thankfully.
And think of others, often, lovingly.
Our home’s a bit of heaven’s harmony.

Our house, our house, God bless our home
With safety, peace and love.
Our house, our house, God bless our home
With Thy sweet spirit from above.

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Memories

These last few weeks have been very stressful to me. My son and family, who live 1.5 miles away, are moving out of state…probably next week. Buying and selling homes should not be this hard, complicated, or frustrating. The closing date keeps shifting, and requirements keep popping up. I like to feel in control. I find security in that, and when events cannot be planned, it explodes my brain and clicks on the ‘worry’ switch. I really do hope that someday I will look back on this time and tell myself that there was no reason to fret. Then there is the component of missing the grand kids, who I now see on a daily basis. Put all that into a pot, and I’m a bundle of stress. I really do need to make each encounter/visit meaningful, not just because they’re leaving, but to make it a part of what I do all the time. Make memories.

The things we do together
Store memories in the heart
Remaining there to be
Called up when we’re apart.
To remind us of the
Love we shared
In days now in our past.
They weld our love together
With a bond to always last.

Tell me what you do to keep in touch with loved ones, especially the little ones.

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The Bear Lake Monster

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I know that we said we’d post a poem every Monday, but. Today I’m going to vary from that and tell a story that accompanies my newest painting entitled “The Bear Lake Monster”. My grand kids have repeatedly asked me about the Bear Lake Monster because I grew up there and spent much time at the beach. When I tell them that I’ve never seen it, they press me for my opinion about it’s appearance. Well, let’s put the question to rest:

The last rays of the sun had just disappeared from the rolling mountains that form the border on the east side of Bear Lake. It was a refreshingly cool summer evening, the first night at the Lakeside Lodge. Everyone had come to a family get-together: Grandma & Grandpa & their 3 children and spouses & 6 grand kids. The day was mostly spent unpacking and exploring the cabin and surrounding lake property. There had even been an excursion to North Beach with sun, waves and lots of sand (much of which made it’s way back to the cabin.) The littlest ones were now being bathed to remove it from their feet. Grandma was cleaning up the dishes and food in the kitchen. Others had gathered in the family room with immense windows facing the lake. As evening drew near, the blinds were lowered, creating a cozy den that now hosted much conversation, frivolity, and silliness.

Two small ones, still awaiting their bath time, had escaped to the yard and were trampling about on the wooden pier, feeling like conquerors of the lake and all surrounding area. In the stillness of the lake, one pointed out the large ripple passing by a short distance out.

Without warning, and silently, except for the sudden splash of waves, the ripple rose from the lake in all it’s immensity, revealing, in it’s wake a huge, fin-backed, blue-purple-silver shimmering monster, who had stopped in it’s powerful swim, planted all four legs in the lake, and with purpose and intent, turned it’s head to stare directly at the two children, now frozen on the end of the pier. For a moment, the beast was motionless and although it’s eyes were yellow, large, and piercing, the stare was not threatening, just a quiet, curious glance at the two figures. Then, as suddenly as it had appeared, it submerged itself and continued swimming northward, it’s sturdy fin slowly disappearing in the distance.

The two were wordless for just a few seconds, and then explosively hurled themselves into the cabin to relate the tale to the family, who were oblivious of all outside events, and skeptically patronizing to the tale now told with great animation and wide eyes.

And so, the legend of the Bear Lake Monster lived, at least in the hearts of the two.

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Repentance

This last weekend was the semiannual general conference for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. Messages from apostles and prophets are broadcast from several sessions. The messages are comforting, inspiring, educational, uplifting, chastening, and very personal to anyone, church member or not, who desires to follow the path Jesus paved.

Repentance was a topic discussed several times. For anyone who would like to read or hear these messages, log onto LDS.org and follow the links for general conference. In a few days I believe the recent messages will be available to print, read, or hear. For the topic of repentance, three speakers come to mind: Reeves, Bednar, and Renlund.

Elder Bednar spoke of repentance and how we need to have faith in Christ to repent. To have faith that Jesus says to us “Come now and let us reason together, saith the Lord: though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be as white as snow…” Isaiah 1:18. Most of what he said was well-known doctrine, but at the end of his speech, he spoke of those who have a hard time ‘believing’ what they know. In other words, they have faith, but making it personal and applying it is a step more difficult to achieve. I guess that’s like getting knowledge from your head to your heart. Perhaps that’s why some of us sincerely repent, and yet, keep reminding ourselves of past sins and follies and don’t allow ourselves to shed the guilt that has already been swept away. We do not draw upon the real power of the Atonement. Perhaps it’s easy to tell someone else that they are forgiven and should forget, but, when it comes to ourselves, we struggle. We need to be like the father who came to Jesus and asked him to heal his son. Christ asked if he believed that it was possible, and the father replied, “Lord, I believe; help thou mine unbelief.” Mark 9:24

Repentance and forgiveness are a two-edged sword.
Once we repent and are forgiven, we must believe the Lord.
For only by true faith in Christ can we receive his joy,
The pure grace that comes from Christ to every girl and boy.

And when we find ourselves caught in sin’s dark snare,
We must repent each day we live. Forgiveness lifts despair.
We each fall short in many ways. Pure light casts out all fear.
Through guidance from the Holy Ghost, we grow and see more clear.

Forgiveness is the healing balm, we feel when we obey,
Only when we humbly seek for forgiveness every day.
He helps us live more Christ-like, as repentance brings us joy.
As we repent, forgive and serve, Christ’s grace we do employ.

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